A Hard Truth

I started journaling daily since I was 10. The brilliance in this is that I am extremely aware and reflective of my progress - all my experiences to date, and my thoughts & feelings around them.

However, I also became attached to my goals and visions. When the "right" opportunities or people show up in my life that seemingly fit into what I jotted down for my vision for the month, quarter, year, I hold onto them.

I have always been preaching the idea of everything in life happens for us, not to us. I dislike the idea of wasting time or energy on things that do not contribute to my growth and long-term vision, so I quickly remove myself from such scenarios.

The opposite side of this is that I also then have the hardest time of letting go of the potential of something I thought could blossom into something greater, more meaningful, more conducive to my desired future. Most of the times, luckily, I am right. Occasionally, not so much.

And this has manifested into my personal and professional life. More so than ever in the last couple of months. I have to admit it has been a hard truth for me to really look at myself in the mirror, and realize I myself am the reason.

So... I started this experiment. I started cutting down the number of my goals, I started leaving a few evenings per week to TBD, I started matching the energy others give me, I started pushing myself outside of my comfort zone opportunistically, I started carving out space for whatever comes up and whomever actually show up for me.

Then my life started to be filled with unexpected sudden shifts, breakthroughs and encounters - the most wonderful opportunities I did not realize I was seeking, the most extraordinary people I did not know that could even exist, the most exhilarating experiences that top everything I could have ever planned or hoped for.

And suddenly...

My dreams started chasing me...!!